A couple days ago I was recalled by my friend’s question, “why I was starting to write in this blog and what drives me a lot”. I thought back at the time when I decided to enforce myself doing the thing that I have never been passionate about that before. In the motion of being people with such great work, I figured out what I can do in order to bring myself out from the comfort zone. It was a big decision I made, that brought me in today’s situation.

The decision was made when I observed what people have done. Some of them had a passion on writing, then spread their influence by writing. At that time, I was really bad in writing since I did not have a lot motivation to read and good sense in how good writing can be. I was a practical person that learning mostly by experiencing something directly, sometimes without knowing how it works first. For example, in graphical design, I did try to use CorelDRAW at the beginning, learning it by doing, and it works! Of course, sometimes I really need to read some tutorial and it both were going simultaneously. Is that good example? I hope so.

When I was a child, I used to study a lot, especially during my elementary and junior high school. But it was not guaranteed that I love reading, man! The fact was I read only the textbook without adding more another supplementary book and I just tried to understand what my teacher had said during the class. That’s all, but It worked since I also tried to succeed in every assignment I had. During senior high school, where people usually start to love something so much, instead, I was being a likely general person trying to love everything I possibly can do. Instead of being a very specific skilled guy, I was leading myself to be able in a lot of sport and various specialties. I do like football, volleyball, ping-pong, graphic design, website design, videography, a science of course that I am supposed to learn, and some others like drawing. I was passion on such thing because of my parents’ s influences (such as volleyball, that my parent interested in and build a volleyball field nearby our home always) and another factor is due to a liar desire to be like another one who was inspiring me so much. “It seems interesting. It is good. Why should not I try it?”.

However, reading was not my interesting during my senior high school. I was extremely bad at thinking something deeply and put it through a paragraph. I became a really practical person who likes to play around in the real field, experiencing something by doing, meeting, talking to someone and laughing with them. I learned a lot from that style of open adoption of my surrounding. I was being more extrovert, rather than living with inner thoughts and feeling.

But, I found myself, when I was in Undergraduate, had a motivation to try a new thing. Writing. I was filled with a willingness to build my writing skill at that time. I have recognized that some people have not only good leadership in practical socialization but also been able to spread their thought by a writing and start to inspire others by their writing. It was compelling motivation for myself so much since I was still a common people that tend to imitate something looking good. But It was good improvisation for my life I thought. There is no wrong thing I was eager to learn. It became my starting point to enforce myself love writing, without innate skill.

To be continued